Monday, February 22, 2010
It's the start of the last week of February! Will I meet my goal of 10 pounds down this month? I think it is very possible! Weighed in this morning at 272.2, which means a loss last week of 4.2 pounds! Wowsa & YAY! I am trying to keep the scale as only one of several markers of my weight loss and healthier living success, but it is nice when the scale reflects the work being done. It's even nicer when the scale reflects more than you expect and probably deserve! Which is definitely true this week.
See, I had a bout of emotional eating just two days ago...the first (and hopefully only) emotional eating I've done since I've started this journey. Ever had a day where you feel like you behaved a litte less mature than your youngest child? Yeah, that was me on Saturday...
Saturday we planned to go sledding with the kids. Had lunch and everyone got ready to go. Then I realized I couldn't find my keys to the van. Nor the spare keys to the van. As my husband and the kids waited outside, I searched the house & my purse over and over again for the keys. The more time went by with no success, the more my internal thoughts become more and more negative. "I'm ruining this day"..."I'm so unorganized!"..."I'm incompetent"..."I'm a failure as a mom/wife"...why do our thoughts digress like this when we are stressed? So then my DH popped his head in to see if there had been success. He was frustrated the keys still hadn't been found, understandably so, but I totally flew off the handle at him...because I had already stirred myself into a ball of stressed out nerves. That degenerated into a stupid fight. I ended up spending the rest of the day deep cleaning the house from bottom to top in search of my keys. Bonus #1 - it was a good workout. Bonus #2 - my house is clean and more organized! I DID find the keys...they were on my bedside table, but when my daughter had naptime in our bed, she had piled her toys on top of them. But I didn't find them until about 8:00...too late for sledding. I never found the spare...hmm...where IS it?
Anyway, after spending several hours cleaning, and later getting the kids to bed, I still felt stressed out. I had apologized to DH for my behavior earlier, and he had gone to bed early. I wanted to stay up and get my menu-plan for the week done...and I remembered that a friend had brought and left some M&M's at our house on Friday night. Our guests then had already eaten about half the bag. But Saturday night I grabbed that bag and proceeded to eat the other half of the bag (and this was the large size bag) while I did my menu-planning. I wasn't hungry...and even if I had been, there were better choices available. Towards the end of my M&M binge the candy didn't even taste good anymore. And I wasn't feeling so good either. My body has had very little refined sugar in the last two months. Eating 1/2 a bag of M&M's left me with a raging headache, feeling sore (inflammation, maybe?) and angry at myself for it. So much for relieving stress, huh?
Anyway - all that to say, I fully expected a gain...or a zero loss for the week because of that mishap. So imagine my surprise when I still showed an over 4 pound loss! Undeserved grace...thank you scale.
PS - We went sledding yesterday instead and had a GREAT time!!! :)